Before and after

I haven't placed a photo of myself on here in some time. Mainly because I didn't see the changes, however many people in my life did.

I would get comments about being skinnier almost daily within the last few weeks. Yes I've been sick and that's added to my sudden weight loss since being plateaued for a year, but there have been many changes that I'm starting to notice.

First my size 12 jeans are falling off of me, I apparently skipped size 10 and can now fit size 8.

 My shirts no longer require an X in them (although every girl needs some bigger clothes for those kind of days). 

I can wrap a normal size towel all the way around my body with no gaps.

When I look straight down I see my boobs, not my stomach and boobs.

And finally, my feet shrunk! I went from a size 8.5/9 to a size 7/7.5 in almost all of my shoes. 

So I decided to take a picture to see what I only get a few glimpses of when passing a store window. 

You can close your mouth now! I'm not near my goal, but I'm getting there. 

But what I find more exciting is seeing what everyone else sees. I don't see the girl in the blue shirt anymore. Although she likes to rear her ugly head every now and then, but I'm starting to see the girl in pink. 

Truthfully I still fear that I won't fit in a seat, or through an aisle or that I'm going to break this or that, but when I make it thought, or realize my legs don't spill over the side of the chair I know I'm no longer that fat girl.

Yes I still have a ways to go and I'm still pushing myself, but for now I'm taking it one day at a time. I'm still sick (hoping to have some kind of answers this week) but, I'm not giving up. This weekend I ran for the first time in over two months and while I had no energy to do it I pushed myself. I don't want to give in, I won't give in, because I don't want to be that girl again.

So I'm listening to my body, when it says it's done I'm done. I don't care if I only did ten reps out of my 50, my body is telling me to stop for a reason, but at the same time it's not giving in either. I know I will get back to swimming, running and biking my normal distances someday, but for now I'm happy just waking up and getting out of bed.