Onto the next adventure

Life has a funny way of giving you a reason to run, rhetorically speaking of course. It’s been two years since my knee surgery and a lot has happened. From falling in love to breaking up, traveling to the other side of the country on my own to exploring a different country on my own, my life has been full of ups and downs. Just like the scale. Here’s the thing though, I’ve been on the journey called life where I finally realized I need to start living for me.

What does this mean? I’m not exactly sure right now, but I’m trying to figure it out. I have spent most of my life trying to fit into the mold of others, what everyone expected me to be. In the end I was miserable wishing I could just make everyone happy but failing miserably at it.

So after some long and hard thinking I’ve decided to make a huge change with my life. It’s in the “infant” stage right now, but I’m gaining support from those who mean the most to me.

I’m not sure if it will work out because I’ve put it on the back burner twice now, but I finally feel ready. My biggest fear is failing. Not just failing for me, but failing for all the amazing support I have gotten.

This isn’t a weight loss goal or journey, this is my life. The weight loss is just a piece of me, a piece of who I am that once defined me and one that will always be a piece of me.

I’m afraid of jinxing myself right now, but I will admit I’m excited, nervous and determined to learn and see if this plan will work. It will be a huge change and those closest to me haven’t faltered on their support, giving me the push I need to see if I can do it.  

So you’re probably wondering what I’m talking about, right? It’s a passion of mine, one I’ve hidden since I was a kid, but always dreamt of doing.

Sometime in my near future I will be making the trek out to California. Not for vacation this time. I will be moving to pursue my dream of being a screenwriter. I love writing, I want to be a novelist someday as well, but I also love the idea of seeing my work on the screen. I’m not just talking about film, but the everyday shows you stand around the water cooler and talk about at work, the shows where you can’t miss even if your second cousin’s girlfriends fathers sisters in the hospital giving birth to twins.

I’m not sure exactly when this plan will work out, but I’m not going to give up on it. No, this isn’t a weight blog entry this time, but this is a huge part of my life. As you can tell I’m not here just to write about my weight loss, because with weight loss comes new adventures that never seemed possible, this being one of them.